Today, August 5th, 2018, is the first post of my blog. I had thought about creating a blog before but today it is happening. The words you will read in the next few paragraphs I wrote today. I couldn’t get them on the page fast enough.
“As I lay here on my bed in a not so comfortable way, I listen to Lauren Daigle sing. The words begin “I am guilty, ashamed of what I’ve done, what I’ve become. These hands are dirty, I dare not lift them up to the Holy One”.
I cry. I weep actually, trying to be quiet so no one hears me confessing my guilt and questioning… I pray aloud and say “Lord, I don’t doubt your ability to love me, I doubt if I am worthy of your Love”. And even as I speak the words, I get it. That is the point! I am not worthy! None of us are and that is why Jesus had to intercede on our behalf. We can’t earn salvation. It isn’t like that. It is a gift. A gift of perfect mercy and grace and we are receiving it because God was wiling to sacrifice HIS SON!
Thank you Jesus – for dying for us.
Thank you God for the ultimate sacrifice – Your Son.
Thank you Holy Spirit for being with us – to comfort us.
My heart aches, breaks and yearns to help the deeply hurting people. I especially have a burden for the hardened hearts. The harder the heart, the easier it cracks. Who are you? You know who you are. This is written for you. I don’t know who you are or what your story is but God does. Together, with God, we can heal, laugh, experience wholeness, hope and love. This blog is going to be a way to share my story with you, and to hopefully hear your story too.
Bits of Joy (and pain) 